in maph, there was this one particular precept group that i remember crystal clear. everybody rambled on and on about an essay by some guy named bettYAmeen, while i sat frozen, stricken with terror because i had, apparently, mistakenly read an essay by some dude named benjamin. after, i collared jen, all who the heck is bettYAmeen? we were supposed to read benjamin, and- sans judgement- she informed me that they were one in the same.
tonight, someone mentioned bettYAmeen. in the midst of long rambles about books i've not read by authors i do not know. and the thing that is different is that, in maph, i would have thought i would need to read those books. in fact, i would have felt stupid for not having already read them. tonight, i still felt stupid for not having already read them, even more so for having never even heard the authors' names. but it do not think i need to read them. in fact, i'm very nearly certain i won't.