20 July 2011
7 t-minus 2 hours
going to paris was part of the story. if not jackie's then mine. i knew that as far back as march, when the light in new york was not enough and i decided- practicality be damned- i was going to paris.
i didn't know if someone was going to go with me or what the hell was going to happen when i got there or what i was going to do, but i had to go. that was non-negotiable.
and so i was in paris for twelve hours last monday. i wandered and walked, knowing i was right where i was supposed to be and wondering what i was supposed to be doing there.
i need a purpose. a reason. i find it hard to simply be.
so for those first ten hours in paris i was on the hunt. systematically, i hit all the high points of that city i love, all the while eyes peeled for whatever it was that had brought me there and whatever it was i would be bringing back with me.
and i got nothing.
the fries were gone. jackie's houses were uninspiring and my travels uneventful. at one point, desperate, i picked up a rock from a walkway by the eiffel tower because at least then, if i returned without a tale, without words, i'd at least have something tangible from this trip that i could hold in my hand.
with two hours left- annoyed, tired and with terribly sore feet- i collapsed on a bench in the back garden of notre dame. half an hour later, my story sat down on the opposite bench.
this is a useful metaphor. or at least i choose to see it as such because it is evidence that i am not crazy. paris was part of the story. and the story is always there, whether it looks as we imagined or not.
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LONDON BABY,
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7 comments:
ooooooh!!!!
indeed.
WHAT?!
never fear, sensei. it's this week's naked lady bar submission, so you'll see soon enough.
OF COURSE I KNEW THAT BECAUSE I ALREADY READ AND EDITED THE STORY! YES!
whatever. dude, everybody in the naked lady bar knows we don't do our editing until 4 pm day of!
i want to read the story! (but not edit it because that is not within my scope of practice :)
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