27 May 2011

7 running v. standing still


there's a jackie relative who's willing to talk to me. when we spoke on the phone last august, he said, well, you know, jackie loved parades and, as well as i think i know her, i did not know that.

i've not met with this man for a million reasons. because i didn't have the money, i didn't have the technology, i didn't have any questions and i didn't have the emotional wherewithal to arrange for a rental car in a city whose website explicitly warns that there is no available parking and it is stupid to drive.

but mostly i have not met with this man because there's a fool voice in the back of my head that says that meeting with him would somehow expose the severity of my limitations. this is the same voice that says my work should unfold in a neat and tidy way, that all risks are inadvisable and standing still is by far for the best.

i'm fairly certain that voice is a vile bitch. because neat and tidy isn't the answer. quite often you have to make a big old mess.

if you know exactly what you're doing, where you're headed and how, you will likely get there, but you might also miss out. because it's by taking the risks and the paths you never planned to go down that you wind up doing the really really interesting things. the things beyond what you can dream.

there's a jackie relative who's willing to talk to me. i'm likely imperilling his life by admitting it, but, all these months later, i am finally ready for him.

7 comments:

Osutein said...

I do think the journey to the Jackie book will prove almost as great as the Jackie book itself. In fact, that could be the title. "The Journey to the Jackie Book." In fact, it could be a whole franchise. "The Jackie Book Strikes Back," "The Fellowship of the Jackie Book," "The Return of the Jackie Book," "The Attack of the 500-page Jackie Book."

oline said...

i appreciate your effort to make this as epic as possible. get ready- you'll be expected to provide a cover quote of the "she has taken the ring to mordor" variety.

and aren't you off to see the hillpeople this weekend? do give them my regards.

oline said...

no. you're not. you're going to a wedding. but the hillpeople are soon, no?

Osutein said...

Lemme do that right now: "Oline Eaton has done nothing less than completely reinvent and reanimate the hitherto exhausted 'Jackie O. Epic Fantasy' biographical genre first seen in Edmund Morris's Pulitzer Prize-winning 'Jackie Onassis and the Island of Doom'"
-Austin H. Gilkeson, author of that cheesey quote about stars on various Wiccan Geocities pages.

Oh, and Saturday = wedding. July 4th weekend = hill people.

oline said...

YES. so so good. and if you ever need a blurb for the cheesy star quote, i'm your girl.

Katie said...

YAY! I'm excited that you are ready to talk to the Jackie relative! I wonder what else you find out beyond Jackie liked parades?!!

oline said...

we shall see. hopefully. these people have a habit of kicking the bucket after i contact them!